Little girl blue

"Sit there, count your fingers. What else, what else is there to do?"
Of course these are the first lines of Janis Joplin's famous "Little girl blue." And that's exactly how I feel these days. Except that I don't sit counting my fingers and the raindrops. I sit and browse the internet. I sit and play the Sims3. I sit and read through job ads.
One of the main points of this blog was to keep myself detached from the miseries of unemployment. I mean emotional detachment because, you see, you can't really detach yourself in any other way when you don't have a job. So as I said I needed something to do, to feel creative, to feel involved. But it is really hard. I can't even buy a baker's product without feeling ashamed. One would say that that few hundred forint doesn't matter but it does. There are simply too many trifles to pay for.
One would ask why I am so pathetic. Obviously, I don't live on the streets because homeless people don't usually have a blog. I've been to 5 job interviews so far, and all of them had a positive outcome in the sense that all the companies said they would call me when they have learners for me. When I'm telling this I don't mean the usual we-will-call-you attitude. It just takes time to organize things.
So what I do now is wait and wait and wait 'til the phone rings.